The Last Time I Committed Suicide


Cast: Thomas Jane, Keanu Reeves, Claire Forlani, Gretchen Mol, Adrien Brody, Cristine Rose, Marg Helgenberger, John Doe

Written by: Stephen Kay, based on a letter by Neal Cassady

Director: Stephen Kay

Genre: Biography, Romance

Running Time: 1 hour, 32 minutes

Release Date: June 20, 1997

MPAA rating: R

Neal Cassady

Neal Cassady (played here by Thomas Jane), was an almost mythical figure among “the beat poets” of the 1950s. Not only was Cassady a writer himself, but he inspired other writers’ characters and stories. For instance, Jack Kerouac’s recurring character Cody Pomeray was based on Cassady, as was Dean Moriarty, main character of Kerouac’s On the Road.

The story we are told in The Last Time I Committed Suicide takes place in the 1940s, when Cassady was in his late teens/early twenties and… sowing his wild oats, I guess you could say. The film’s screenplay is based on a letter Cassady mailed to Kerouac: detailing his girlfriend’s suicide attempt, a failed romance, a tryst with a young girl, and a particularly impressive prowess for stealing automobiles. Jane narrates the film as Cassady, essentially reading the contents of the letter aloud. Narration can be tricky, but it is used well here.

Adrien’s Role: Benjamin

Adrien plays Benjamin (called “Ben” or “Benji”), one of Neal Cassady’s closest friends, with whom he shares custody of a suit. Cassady takes it whenever he wants to look “respectable” (such as job interviews), but it stays with Benji most of the time. Neal tells Benji the suit looks better on him, because he (Benji) is more elegant and has a better frame for it. Benji replies that no one has a better frame for anything than Neal. The relationship between Neal and Benji is very sweet.

It’s made fairly clear to the viewer that Benji is gay. While Neal is not, he is clearly very comfortable engaging in flirty banter with Benji. It’s very nice to see a “straight” man in the 1940s be this secure and progressive (for the time). Then again, it’s pretty clear Neal Cassady was a very progressive sort of person.

Neal and Benji share three scenes together (well, sort of two and a half), but I wish it was more.

Keanu Reeves as Harry

Keanu Reeves portrays Harry, a somewhat creepy (by his own admission) friend of Cassady’s. For example: Harry is well into his thirties, but is so enamored with Neal’s sixteen-year-old former lover, that he begs Cassady for his help in bedding her. Now, granted, she was too young for either of them, legally.

Reeves gives a decent performance, though it does have those certain Keanuisms to it. If you’ve seen his other work, you know what I mean by that. My only complaint about Brody’s Benji is that he doesn’t get enough screen time; my complaint about Reeve’s Harry is the opposite. Reeves is overused in this film, in my opinion. However, to be fair, he was the biggest star in the cast at the time.

Cristine Rose

One of my very favorite “character actors” is in this film and I was so happy to see her. Cristine Rose plays the mother of “Cherry Mary” (Gretchen Mol), the aforementioned 16-year-old tryst of Cassady’s. She’s so talented and really shines here.

If you’re a fan of the TV “Friends” (as I am), you’d know her as Phoebe’s mother-in-law, Bitsy Hannigan.

Claire Forlani

Claire Forlani is also very impressive as Cassady’s troubled girlfriend, Joan. There’s a scene where she is waiting up for Neal that is just heartbreaking to watch. I’ve never seen her in anything else, if memory serves, but she’s wonderful here.

In Closing

This film is basically an orgy for the senses. Loud jazz music, wild cuts, jarring camera angles, lots of sex (though nothing too graphic), lots of cars being stolen, lots of drinking. Even with all of that, there’s also a fair amount of deep self-reflection and realization that goes on. It’s a really interesting mix.


Movie Overall: 6/10
*Brody Performance: 7/10

*Adrien doesn’t have enough screen time in this one for me to fully analyze the role, but he’s delightful (and believable) when he does appear.



Author: Patricia Henderson

Patricia Henderson is a 40-something from Northern California. She has loved both movies and writing since she was a child, so this was a logical choice.

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